I really think that it is time for me to upgrade my space so that people know that I am still alive. Internet has been down for nearly two months at home – life is so dull without it. Gradually, my patience is wearing off days after days. How annoying!

  The first placement finally ended yesterday after ten weeks. It has seemed to be endless and I had been dragging myself to the hospital every morning – not motivation whatsoever. There is too much disappointment for being a baby medical student. I always feel that I am in people’ s way as there are nothing much I can do or I am allowed to do without supervision. Taking history, doing examination on patients, taking blood and performing an ECG, basically that was all I did in the practical aspect, I feel unsatisfied. I remembered that on the first day of this attachment, I spent an hour on taking a history from this friendly but dementia grandpa. However, when I looked up his notes in the record, surprisingly, I discovered that he had been telling me story. At that moment, I really did not know whether to laugh or cry. Anyway, the project we need to do for each attachment sucks, it takes ages but it is useless.

Oh well, I cannot believe that there is another 10-week ahead. Add oil and just do it!